It’s true. My sleep patterns have now become a thing of the past. Blogging has taken over my thoughts, nights and entire weekends. I still keep wondering, when am I going to get there? I mean finally have a website design I love, photos I’m proud of and solid blog posts. It’s not like I’m not putting in the time….but damn this is time-consuming.
This past weekend was one of those weekends where I plopped myself down in front of my computer and didn’t get up until Monday at 9 am (only because I had to leave for the airport). I signed up for so many accounts and website tools, most of which I have no clue how to use. Seriously if I have to remember another password my head is going to explode!
I also spent 8+ hours over three days with 4 different help agents trying to download Adobe Photography. We finally got it, and now I’m thinking how long is it going to take to learn how to use it? oof, not looking forward to the learning curve on that one!
It’s been A LOT of work to get this far and I am genuinely proud of myself for pushing through the long nights to get here. I’ve only been at it a couple of months but the headaches, eye twitches and loss of sleep are real! Pushing through the self-doubt is the hardest part. I don’t doubt myself that I can do the work, it’s just that -will it be good enough? And more so than that, will it be worth it?
I don’t know where I will be in a year from now, but one thing is for sure, I won’t regret the loss of sleep that got me there!
I’ve been reading books, blogs and listening to podcasts every chance I get. Trying to soak up as much inspiration, motivation, and knowledge I can. I won’t lie, it gets discouraging when I hear so many successful travel bloggers say they stumbled into it. I don’t want to take any credit away from anyone who started at the right time. The work and dedication that goes into making a career out of blogging is no joke. But timing can be everything. I know I’m starting at a very competitive time but I’m still optimistic the blogging internet world is big enough for more success stories.
Despite all the long hours, loss of sleep, and uncertainly I have been feeling these past few months, there is still some joy in it all. Maybe it’s the high I get when I accomplish something new or the feeling of working for myself where the reward is solely dependent on how much I put in. Whatever it is, the desire to keep going is still there, which I am so thankful for. It hasn’t been an easy road but at least the road feels paved.
If you are reading this and thinking about starting something new, seriously just start! There are going to be plenty of ups and downs and maybe more unsupportive people than supportive ones. e.g. are you doing that blog crap again? yup, I sure am! (thanks Dad). For the most part, I know it comes from a lack of understanding of the space. I am grateful for those who say “I completely believe in you” (thanks Jamie) but I have to believe in myself the most. I don’t know where I will be in a year from now but one thing is for sure I won’t regret the loss of sleep that got me there!